A List of Things I Miss, Don’t Miss, Won’t Miss, and Won’t Forget

Don't know what you've got until it's gone

What I Already Miss

Going to movie theaters with squeaky seats (Angelika, BAM, Spectacle)

Going to movie theaters with non-squeaky seats (Film Forum, Quad, Regal Battery Park)

The assumed drink-and-recap after the movie

Rushing to play tennis with Paul on Friday mornings

The grumpy bartender at Spain on 13th Street

Any dinner conversation that keeps going after the check is paid. (Also, signing the check, for some reason?)

Sending someone in the office a dumb Slack message and then seeing the look on their face as they read it

Planning trips (especially ones that include swimming off the coast of somewhere with Ryan and the possibility of getting a tan)

Therapy on Thursdays + Gray’s Papaya on 72nd afterward “as a treat”

(One hot dog with ketchup, mustard, and sauerkraut and a regular Coke)

Wandering around somebody else’s neighborhood

What I Don’t Miss

Feeling guilty for deciding not to go out, ever

When TSA agents yell about what to do with your laptop and shoes

Buying things from companies I don’t respect when I’m being lazy

Saturday spirals

The L train during the morning rush

Although I guess it does have its charms

What I Won’t Miss

Cooking every. single. meal.

(Cooking three times a week = reasonable. Three times a day? Excessive)

Missing my friends while simultaneously feeling burned out on texting/FaceTiming/Zooming with them

Not knowing if my chest pain is anxiety or a Covid-19 symptom

Avoiding natural physical contact

Bang-trim purgatory

The phrase “panic buying”

The infinite loop of people feeling pressure to be productive and people telling people not to feel pressure to be productive

Being indecisive about anything happening more than a day in the future

Worrying about whether I’m adequately worried

What I Won’t Forget

Who was supportive without reservations, to me and to others

That I joined the DSA last Thursday not as an overreaction, but out of meant-to-and-should-have-done-this-earlier moral clarity

Related: Anyone deemed “essential” during this crisis deserves to be treated that way every day and my role in this is not a passive one

That “culinary improvisation” is actually not one of my skill sets

To figure out why so many male leaders start wearing baseball hats when shit gets real (exhibit A, B, and who could forget C)

To be grateful for the kind of stability that sometimes bores me

That New York is New Yorkers and nothing else

Graphic by Lorenza Centi.

Mallory Rice

Mallory Rice is a writer who sometimes has bangs and sometimes does not. She was previously the executive editor of this fine website.

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