This week’s episode of Monocycle is so personal that when I listened back to it, I couldn’t recognize the voice. It sounded a lot like mine — same tone and affectations — but was also kind of timid and frazzled and confused and definitely vulnerable. So much of the stuff that is said sounds to me like fractures of the way I think: longer circuits cut short by distress, but the reason I wanted to publish it is because it’s important.
It’s important to share what I’m going through while I’m in it as opposed to sharing once I’ve overcome it — after I’ve been able to put the experience in a box and wrap it in fancy words and call it a first person essay, because this is real life, right? And between the inspiring stories of victory and triumph that emerge out of despair and the road blocks that life throws in our tracks in an attempt to derail us, there is the very real question of, “But what do I do NOW? To make myself feel better in the present? While I’m still going through it?”
I don’t have a profound answer, but sometimes, it seems, just sharing is enough.
Monocycle is edited by Nicholas Quazzy Alexander; Logo illustration by Kelly Shami; photograph by Paper Boat Creative.